35 fitting in, and Fortnite🤦‍♀️

So, I have been asking myself where I fit in, for 35 years of age? I am not old, but i am not young either. Still finding myself caught in the middle or caring what people think, and doing my own thing.
  The thing I have learned in life is that there are people that are not going to like you, plain and simple!
 From the way you look, talk, act or walk. People will judge you and talk about you. Hey, that's life!
   It's honestly none of our business what people think.( I just need to take my own advice😉)
   There have been many things that I have wanted to do in life, but I always cut myself short, bc of being worried about being judged.
      Eight years ago, I started a YouTube channel. Did it in Hopes that we would reach thousands of people, so they could see how unique our family was. ( starting that channel, lead to some of the best memories😍,still not mad about it )
https://www.youtube.com/user/Verbeekstink

    I made these videos for a year, It was great, and it was something i really loved to do.
   After that year. The big evil DOUBT came into my life. Telling me that my content was boring, and that people were not going to like it. Why am I wasting my time?  So on and so forth.
   It took any motivation I had out of wanting to film.😔 I took something that I loved, and stopped doing it, all bc i was worried about what others thought.
   The want of wanting to get back up, and film has been come and go. I will film here, and there. It's just the boys are getting older now, and it puts me at a loss of what to film. ( all they like to do is play fortnite🤦‍♀️)

It kills me. 

This game is the root of all evil.

It's the first  first thing my boys do when they wake up, and play this is the last thing they do before they go to bed.

We had video games when I was little, but this whole technology thing, has taken over, in a huge way.

My boys no longer want to be social. They would rather stay inside, and play with their other friends from school, that are also playing fortnite!

It really makes me feel  us ELDER MILLENIALS- were the last of our generation to play outside to the streetlights come on, explore and just be social creatures.

Well enough of my blabbering for one post. I am now going to take my coffee, and do what any other ELDER MILLENIALS would do, and drink it on the front porch.